Saturday, July 11, 2009

tired

I am feeling tired of everything, tired of trying to make things better, tired of understanding others, tired of giving my best, tired of waiting for an answer, tired of shouting up, tired of agreeing.

feeling tired, I guess is a way of knowing things are not at its best, maybe not working as they should, maybe not going anywhere.

Feeling tired may also be a way to know what to quit, what to leave behind what to forget. But being tired of starting up again is a dangerous situation, since you may never start gain, never try again, never dream again.

I know things don´t have to always be good, up and running.
I know everything has difficulties.
I know nothing works or lasts for ever but it feels as if it never started.
It feels this was never born, never grew never bloomed.
It feels so short and so dead.

Now, Again I don´t know what to do, what to say, where to go...I see nothing, nothing, nowhere.

Again at the very beginning.